As the title and subtitle suggest, I am Emma Kelly, Mal’s roommate, and friend, and I’m DELIGHTED to write this Pal Crush Monday even though she had to text me and remind me about 1 minute ago. Mal and I became roommates and friends thanks to Matt Downey (thanks Matt !!), who responded, on Mal’s behalf, to my post on facebook looking for a roommate to fill an open room in our house. Mal came and interviewed in person with her brother Ben (hi Ben congrats on the chapbook!!) and the rest is history. Mal and I have actually lived in the same place for many years without ever interacting until that roommate interview - 1) UMass Amherst, 2) NYC, and now 3) Denver. The world is so small and so big.
So who AM I????? Just a small town girl, living in a lonely world. Actually though I’m 27, (bday coming up October 28th put it in your cals) and originally from Long Island, NY. I love going for walks, swimming in the ocean, 6-8 mile hikes, almost any type of dessert, and going to concerts. Other than that I like to spend my time laughing as much as I can with my pals and napping/laying.
Okay HONIES, let’s get into it, as Mal would say:
The format:
What I’m crushing (accomplishing, achieving, attaining, fulfilling, something that I am being successful at.)
What is crushing me (see definition 3b, something that is bringing me down.)
What I’m crushing on (admiring, adoring, appreciating, cherishing, favoriting, etc.)
What I’m crushing
I recently came off my antidepressants! After 4 years of being part of the #lexapro gang I made the decision to try to come off my meds and for the time being have done so successfully. I have found that I’m very close to tears at almost any moment, but that’s in the case of things both happy and sad. On a recent flight home I watched A Man Called Otto that was overflowing with grief and joy and I’m sure the 14 year old girl sitting next to me was wondering why I was getting so emotional. Friendly PSA to anyone thinking about getting pharmaceutical support for anxiety or depression, there is no point where you are “depressed enough” or “anxious enough” to need help, and there’s absolutely no shame in it either. Huge thanks to my friends and family for supporting me through this transition and all of my depressive episodes thus far in my little life!!!! I’m certain there will be more tears but also more laughs.
What’s crushing me
I was going to share something silly but in the spirit of radical honesty Mal has cultivated with this newsletter, I will tell you all that I recently found out I did not get a promotion I applied for at work. I sort of thought it was almost a guarantee, which made this all the more disappointing. I was very sad, but I was reminded that I am not my work and I am not my job and sometimes these things happen! C’est la vie you feel me???? I spent 4-5 days sulking, bought two pints of ice cream (Jeni’s Ooey Gooey Butter Cake and Milk Bar Peanut Butter Chocolate Cookie Crush), and have decided to move on with my life.
What I’m crushing on
I recently made this hummus recipe and have not stopped talking about it since. This is the first time in my life I have ever followed a recipe all the way through, no steps skipped, and by golly this is the best hummus I’ve ever made!! It’s so light and creamy and delicious! Sorry to everyone I’ve seen this week that has already heard me talk about this hummus!!
That’s all she wrote folks!!! Thanks Mal for inviting me to write this Pal Crush Monday and for being my roommate, and friend. To Mal’s lovely readers, have the day you have no pressure for a good one!
XO Emma
This was great to read!!!!! Congrats on your movement -and now I need hummus!
Or like let me buy a premade tub from you or something