Vol. 155: Vertical!!!!!!
At long last!
HELLO!
I am healthy again!!!!!!
Boy oh boy was that a loooooong illness. But now I am upright and back to my regularly scheduled programming.
The format:
What I’m crushing (accomplishing, achieving, attaining, fulfilling, something that I am being successful at.)
What is crushing me (see definition 3b, something that is bringing me down.)
What I’m crushing on (admiring, adoring, appreciating, cherishing, favoriting, etc.)
What I’m crushing
While I don’t feel like I am actively crushing anything, I would like to give a shout out to my body for FIGHTING OFF THE INFECTION!!!!! Thank you, immune system!
What’s crushing me
Sometimes the tears prickle through the SSRI forcefield. I think too hard about it and I feel it in my ears now, not my throat. My throat has been through enough.
It feels like it’s all connected: my throat, my anxiety, my vagus nerve, my loneliness, my heart. The left side of my body aching, always. The bruise on my inner arm, two weeks old, still purple and blooming.
What I’m crushing on
I just finished the book Martyr! by Kaveh Akbar. It took me a little while to get into it but once I did, I really enjoyed it. It’s a rich story about death, identity, and family.
That’s it!
TTFN,
Mal
So glad you are feeling better. I'm so happy you have an immune system that kicks in. Brava. And I totally get tears creeping through your ssri. Billy - my best friend and work partner for 21+ years now has alzheimer's and Scream Along with Billy is over. All I do is cry - anywhere I am, everwhere I go. I'm upping my meds so I can go on, but it's a big change at 70 years old - one that I wasn't prepared for. The sadness is so palpable I can hold it in my hand. Soul-crushing. One minute at a time. xo